I don't know what this is with John, really. I don't think it's being bored with him because he's overly serious as I felt a lot better today after going on a bike ride with Jen and he was cheerful and manic when he came home from work. I accidentally offended him so now he is not even talking to me, is holed up in his room.
I can't say I mind all that much. I am zoned out and listless. That period where I was energetic and full of new ideas is over; this is its inverse. I am not even all that excited about going back to South Carolina anymore (although that is hardly surprising). I have nothing to talk to him about. I guess I've been a huge bitch lately, as he keeps telling me. If that's the case it is more indifference than anything, or being too zoned out to interact properly.
I blame the weather, partly. It's going to warm up again on Saturday, though.
I responded to a bunch of craigslist ads for jobs today. Two part-time office work, a couple part-time receptionist jobs. Also, Jen and I stole from Wal-Mart. I felt very obvious at times but everything was fine.
My room is really messy but I don't care. I don't care about much of anything. Hanging out with Jen the past two days has been good, although I am slightly disturbed by how easily I pick up her mannerisms. Hers are similar to mine in the first place, which makes it easier.
I don't know how to get myself out of this mood. It only bothers me when I remember what I felt like a couple of days ago, or even what I feel like normally; on its own it is not unpleasant, because I'm too removed to be bothered. Agh, this is no good.